Last night was really hard. Why are friends so hard to come by? And why do I keep telling myself I am not good enough to deserve them.Loneliness and depression hit the worst at night and yesterday was awful. Being alone, moving back in with my parents, and going to a new school is killing me. But it’s where I know I need to be. Bupropion(Wellbutrin) is supposed to help me feel better, and not make me want to swallow every pill I can find. I feel so selfish, i have the best boyfriend in the history of the world, he loves me more than I knew a man could love a woman. How can I feel unloved when I know he would take a bullet for me? My depression isn’t logical. But i can overcome it. Slowly but surely I will realize that the huge weight that keeps me down will disappear. Not everyone that sees me is judging me, they don’t care what i am wearing or how my makeup is done. It doesn’t matter how big my boobs are or whether I stuttered through what I said. I am good enough to have friends. I am pretty and people like me. Not everyone does and that is ok, but I deserve love. I deserve love. I deserve to feel wanted.
Sorry about the personal post guys:/ but if anyone is struggling with depression, you are not alone. Reach out to someone and take back your happiness.